First, you have to stop making yourself wrong for being there.
There is something there for you.
Something that is worth so much gold for you to look at.
Slow down, take the time, look at what your core needs are.
What do you deeply desire, do you need connection, love, more money, more security, more in your zone of genius?
What do you need?
What are you doing instead?
How are you protecting yourself?
How are you keeping yourself from being in the sensation of feeling more, being more, creating more and having more fun in your life?